Commit your works unto the Lord, and your thoughts will be established. -Proverbs 16:3, NKJVI've never had a good place to record prayer requests that I encounter, especially online. What usually happens is I read a blog entry or an email from our parish prayer chain, I say a quick prayer, make the sign of the cross, and it often stops there. If I am particularly connected to the person, I am mindful of the situation and pray more often.
Today, it dawned on me that the little notebook, which my godmother gave me to be a sort of catechumenate journal before I was chrismated, would work well in this area. As I leafed through the pages, it was evident from a few old entries that I'd made this decision before.
Today, per Mat. Anna's request, I added Mary Evelyn's name to the list. Next is our friend Jeffery Michael, who is off the ventilator and recovering from his ordeal, but still battles his chronic condition. Finally, I checked in on Marianna and added her to the list. As I encounter more, I will add them and allow this notebook's presence at my desk remind me to pray.
The verse above appears at the bottom of the page I was writing on. It struck me today because I tend to think that I need to get my thoughts right and that doing so will order my actions. But it's the other way around. With housekeeping, prayers, homeschooling, practically anything, I need to do not just think. Taking a step, putting myself in motion, is the only way to discover what God wants from me, or even what simply works for my family and me. As one of my Covenant Bible College professors said in a parting lecture, "You can't steer a ship that isn't moving."
My self-talk needs to go something like this: Just do it. Do something. Do anything. Read one book to the kids. Say one prayer. Just get out of bed now. Don't wait until later when you feel like it. Because later will come and you will regret not doing it now.
Lord have mercy. Lord have mercy. Lord have mercy.