|Our Baby Constantine's grave, St. Tikhon's cemetery|
I know I am incredibly blessed to have (now) three healthy children here with me. When we miscarried a couple of years ago, I was comforted by the thought that if I only ever had my two baby girls, that I would still be blessed and happy with our little family. And as any regular readers know, God continued to bless us with another baby this summer.
But my heart goes out to those families who have to endure the miscarriage or death of their first baby. To have your innocence shattered by the loss of your first child would be one of the most difficult things I think a parent could go through. And the questions! Why didn't my baby live? Did I do something wrong during my pregnancy? Will I ever be able to carry a baby to term? Why wasn't I allowed to meet my little one? Why me?
Any time I hear of the passing of an unborn baby, I am reminded of what my sweet doctor told me after my own miscarriage. He mentioned that some women, for every baby they are able to meet in this world, they have several babies praying for them in heaven. How comforting!
It is entirely possible that I, too, have several unborn children in heaven keeping Constantine company. I have no way of knowing whether we've had just the one miscarriage or if I've had a few very early ones too. It is possible that I may have more in coming years.
What a heart-swelling thought: All the unborn children I have had or may have in the future are a great cloud of children praying for me, my own personal army of tiny saints, perfected and taken before the temptations of this world. How we ache to meet them, but how they rejoice with our Lord!
|Icon of the children being brought to Christ, located in a rock outcropping at St. Tikhon's Monastery|
I thought it especially joyful and appropriate that these parents chose the name Nicholas for their baby. Of course, the timing is right, being that St. Nicholas's feast day was on Monday. But don't some of the hymns and prayers to St. Nicholas refer to him as a special friend of children? Imagine him surrounded by our lost little ones, their heavenly surrogate grandfather praising God with them and leading them in interceding for us.
Holy Saint Nicholas, special friend of children, pray to God for us!